HAPPY 2009!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

A NEW YEAR~

A NEW LIFE~

MUACKX!!

LOVE MY GIRLZ~~~!!!!

LOVE MY FRENDS~~~!!!!!!

MISS U GUYS LOTS LOTS~~!!!!!!!

恢复单身...

we broke up le.. im back to single now.. ppl ask me y i broke up with him... i cant even give a proper reason.. the 'feel' juz suddenly disaapeared.. there were days which i'd tried to find back tat feeling i used to have b4 when im together with him.. but i failed to search back that feeling.. n so.. i decided to end this relationship.. he thought that im playing with his feeling when i told him i wanted to break up.. i reli didnt cheat his feeling.. the problem is me! im scared of having long term relationship.. the longer the relationship goes on.. the fear got chiller... now that we didnt contact anymore... he reli is a great guy.. juz that i don have the luck to be with him.. maybe it is meant to be ended like that.. tired.. im reli tired..

=D happy happy everyday

so happy to be with my darling.. ^^ haha.. knwing that my mami accept him, tat makes me happier.. cuz... she nvr liked any bf i brought home n let her see... but now... she accept timo... ^^ great news huh... very sweet to be with him.. ^^ miss him so much.. =D

happy happy~~~

im so happy these few days... cuz of u? xp s3cr3t... haha.. hOpe tis happiness will last with u f0rever~~~ =D

c3ntr3 pOint nIt3~~

<< me!!!

<< NaNa n me~~!!!

<< birthday boy ( Liang) n me~~!! lolx..

<< Cathy n me~!!

<< sisterz Jean n me~~!! =D

<< me n k9zz

<< lolx.. k-ni...
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心情不佳。。。

今天的你怎么了？真的很想知道是什么事让你这么不快乐。。你只说你的背部骨头出现裂痕。。你也告诉了我你很痛。。可是你也说了还有很多的事。。。。我也不强迫你说。。。等你想讲给我听时我再听吧。。。

my fUtUre life aftEr sPm...

期待过去KL生活的一切。。。或许是想离开这里到KL那里去过过新生活。。。或许就只是想逃开这里的一切。。。其实。。最想的还是到KL后可以与他一起生活。。我老哥也在哪里。。。应该会过得还不错。。SPM 考完后。。姐姐 n 妈咪就会陪我到那里去。。我要去哪里读叻？有TheOneAcademy 跟 Raffles Design Institute... 两间学校我都想去读读看。。。期待期待。。。

新照片。。。

Having Buffet Dinner With My Family At Park City Hotel...
<<< Tis is my lovely daddy~~~~

<< tis is my jeh jeh... posing let me take pic gok..

<< me n mami de 合照。。 haha..

happy happy~~~

wEnt to wAtch '钱不够用2' tis afternoon..... very nice de movie...... very tOuching.... watch until cry... hahahaha.... nice Singapore Movie... meaningful... hahaha.... + funny oso...

Let's see see s0me ph0t0s....

Hong n me~~~ during school food sale~~~~

tis is my jeh jeh.... she blocking her face... -.-

me~me~me~ while waiting my family to get ready... im starving tat time!!!!!! =D

happy mOments~

~wEn n JeaN~ at ting's house bbq~

ting n me ^^

jEaN n me ^^

ting n me ^^ b4 going out~~

me n ting ^^

phOtoSs~~

NelsOn~ -.- dono wad he thinking.. lolx..

b3autyful sunset~~ ^_^

tats my DAD!!!

MY MOM!!! =D

我的第一个你,也是最后一个你..

爱情是不是别人所讲的'只是一场游戏'？

失去了心爱的人是不是也代表着失去了人生最重要的东西呢？

爱一个人是不是就一定要日日夜夜想着他呢？？

分分合合了几次..我以为我习惯了..可是在你提出分手后..

我却还是感觉到了再次的心碎和伤心..
这算不算是真心爱他呢？

闭上眼睛看见的是他的笑容与身影...

他的笑容与身影是这么的靠近我..
我却抱不到...我确定我是爱他的..

我希望我们都是真心爱对方..
可是看来我的希望是多余的了..
因为最后的你还是选择了离开..

haix...

im feeling so down... his parents don like me at all.. guess tat im not the 'girl' in their heart.. wad can i do? i nvr meet with his parents b4 n they already don like me.. =( haix.. i knw im not perfect.. i admit im not good.. i jz couldnt handle things like tis.. wad can i do? wad can i do? wad can i do? haix...

wad to do?!

wad a boring holidays without u....
im getting bored staying at home.... T_T
but.. i don wanna go for tuition class...........

i miss my darling....
few more days den he'll be back to Miri... =D

ONE - EPIK HIGH

Tis is tHe v3ry n3w sOng i h3arD.. n i LiKe the beAt 0f this sOng.. by Epik High

[MV] One - Epik High



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Fan - Epik High [MV]

假惺惺。。

会上网在blOg里写日记或心事的人就是假惺惺的人吗？真的是这样吗？真的超不爽的。。今天在学校里闲聊时其中一位朋友就讲：你们不觉得那些有blOg的人都很假meh? 当然他不知道我有写blOg。。会给人一种假惺惺的感觉的人也只有一些吧。。既然愿意记载在blOg里那就证明了被记录下来的事不是什么秘密啊！就算是把心事pOst上来。。那又怎样？有心事就不能发泄在blOg里吗？真是够了。。很讨厌这种不明白别人在想什么的人。。算了吧。。看破这种人。。

姐姐要生日咯！！！21岁生日。。礼物都还没有买。。而且也没钱买。。真的不知道该怎么办才好。。想买金钥匙给她。。明贵又送了。。而且。。鸭佬讲的对。。金钥匙应该是爸爸妈妈送比较适合。。hmm...那我要送她什么？好烦恼噢。。。。

getting very bOred oUt here..

im so gOd daMed bOred!!!!!! wad can i do?????? im so blurrrrrrrr...... arghh... i miss u!! i miss u!! i reli do miss u a lot these days..... stupid brain.. -.- wad the hell are the two of u doing? 1 gt loved one liao.. another leh? play play play n play? hmmph.. i jz.. cant ... ahh... i dono how to say le lar.... 烦死了。。


<< i wan tis to be my seat!!!!

<< tis is so nice!!!!!

<< so pretty..!!!

<< cute~~

i gOt tagged~~

Got tagged by ShaSha!

Instructions: Remove only ONE question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.

1. What have you realized recently?
i am in love with him.. =x

2. Have you given your first kiss away?
long time ago.. ><

3. If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you will take with you?
ShaSha, Dan, kEnnEth, LemOn.. i din have other blog buddies lerh.. ><

4. Where is the place that you want to go to the most?
the most?! er... Japan?Paris? o.O

5. If you can have 1 dream to come true, what would it be?
get together with him happily forever.. ^^

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after a rain?
Yes, i do..

7. What are you afraid to lose the most now?
my g.i.r.l.z / my hEart ~.~

8. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
enjOy my life.. !!

9. If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
NO~ (unless he admit he loves mi too 1st) ><

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you.
cute, nice, fRieNdly

11. Which singer do you hate most?
Prince (so gay)

12. Which type of person do you hate the most?
F-A-K-E-R-S!

13. If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
oni those who im close wif..

14. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
my family n frens

15. If u are given ONE magic power, what is the magic power that u want?
pOweR tO bE pRetTy n SLIM

16. If your house burned down, what is the one thing you'd save from your room?
my hello kitty pillow!!!

17. If you have a chance. Which part of your character you would like to change?
the emo part of mi

18. What's the last shocking thing you've seen or heard?
'HE' n 'SHE' cheated mi

19. What do you love doing most when you are free?
Miss 'him'

20. Are you happy with your life now?
NO

i tagged
sis^ting
sis^wen
sis^jean
yungyung
丹SH!ro!

*Miss u so MUCH*

When i see you n we say hi to each other
i tremble n get butterflies
acting like a lil' girl that's so shy =x

Sometimes, the only part of my life i'm sure about is
the part i share with you.. =D


wHen i feel down or in fear
the 1st ppl appear in my sight
i want the 1st ppl to be u.. ><

in this cruel n lonely world
i found u
u are fulled in my heart..

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Meanings of kisses~

Kiss on the hand - I adore you.

Kiss on the cheek - I just want to be friends.

Kiss on the chin - You are cute!

Kiss on the neck - I want you.

Kiss on the lips - I love you.

Kiss on the ears - Let's have some fun.

Kiss anywhere else - You're the best.

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滨的生日～

昨晚帮滨庆祝了生日。。23/04（拜三）才是正日。。哈哈。。我们提早帮他庆祝了。。十八岁咯！！变大人咯。。哈哈。。


足球生日蛋糕。。漂亮吧！！哈哈。。特别为他定的。。因为他超爱足球。。滨！抱歉送你的只是足球蛋糕啊。。因为今年的预算不够买真的足球。。heheheh... 下次补会给你。。。 =D


吹不灭的蜡烛。。哈哈哈。。滨 差点断气了。。


笑得那么开心。。不过也是。。开心是当然的啦。。哈哈。。


盈挖了一手的鲜奶油涂去滨的脸。。哈哈哈。。。

１００个对不起（感人故事）

今天期中考，学校早一点放学，我打了通电话给他。 　　
：喂，我今天比较早放学，你来载我回家好不好？ 　　
：好，等我五分钟。 　　
：五分钟？我学校就在你家旁边耶。 　

　 　　
：我总要打扮一下啊。 　　
：好啦，快一点喔。 　

　 　　
下午2：00，太阳大的让我有种冲动想喷鼻血，我站在树荫下挥动着手，虽然没凉到哪里去，但是煽总比不煽好。 　

　 　　
五分钟过了，他还没来，我看看手表，有点不高兴，十分钟过了，他还没到..，该不会出了什么事吧？呸呸呸...乌鸦嘴，十五分钟过了，他总算到了。 　

　 　　
：怎么这么慢？ 　　
他一副无所谓的样子说：没啊，看个电视。 　

　 　　
什么？看个电视？你要不要顺便睡个觉洗个澡吃个饭再来？我没有说话，没有拿安全帽，没有上车的瞪着他。 　　
：对不起。 　　

　
　这是他第一次对我说对不起，他是一个很大男人主义，爱面子的男生，所以他从不像女生低头说对不起，我看着他，好吧，似乎面有惭色，我带上安全帽，让他载我回家。 　　

　　
他总是这样，从来不解释，不争论，不跟我吵架，只跟我说对不起，有些事，不是一句对不起就能解决的，但是他都跟我道歉了，我也就没再追究下去，他说，我是第一个让他说对不起的女生。 　　

　　
认 错需要很大的勇气，但是他从来都没有改进他的错误，对不起反而变成一种打发我的话。在他说第59次对不起时，我流着泪，低下头说：你不要再跟我说对不起 了，如果你无法改变，就不要让我给你一次又一次的机会，相信你会改变。他轻轻的拥着我，说了第60句对不起。 　　

　　
虽然如此，他还是没有改变，不做任何的解释，我开始怀疑他是不是有事瞒着我。 　　
：你最近怎么了？ 　　
：没有啊。 　　
：那你为什么心情不好？ 　　
：没有啊。 　　
：又是没有啊，你除了这句话以外没有别的吗？你知不知道我很担心，很没有安全感，你到底有没有当我是你女朋友？ 　　
：...对不起。 　　
：我不要听你说对不起。 　　

　　
我挂了电话，他也没有打来，他根本就不在乎我，也许，我们该结束ㄌ..........这是他说的第99句对不起....。 　　
从 那天开始，我再也没有找过他，他也没有打电话给我，有时候，我会接到一通无声的电话，但是我喂了几声，就挂了，有一种直觉是他，但是他为什么都不说话？一 个月之后，我按奈不住思念的心情决定到他学校找他，我在教室外东张西望的，就是没有看到他的人影，我随便抓了一个男生来问。 　　
：同学，请问一下，梦伟今天有来吗？ 　　
：他休学了。 　　
：啊？为什么？什么时候的事？ 　　
：他已经一个月没来了。 　　
：...喔..谢谢。一个月..一个月没来，怎么会呢？ 　　
我 跌跌撞撞的回到家..拨他的手机：您的电话已经为您转到语音信箱，请在嘟一声...。我挂了电话，打到他家，响了好久都没有人接，怎么会？全家移民吗？他 仿佛是从这世界上消失了一样，没有一点痕迹。 　　他该不会另结新欢了吧？我开始胡思乱想，我找不到他..，正当我烦恼的时候，电话突然响了，是阿立打来的，他是梦伟的死党也是我的好友。 　　

　　
：喂，你还在干嘛啊？ 　　
：什么？ 　　

　　
：ㄚ伟在医院啦。 　　
：真的？他怎么了？ 　　

　　
：没有啦，他在○○医院，就是你上次住的那一家。 　　
：我马上去。 　　

　　
我立刻用我出生以来最大的速度飙到那家医院，在医院看到了他****和妈妈，我向他们问了他在哪一间病房之后，就急忙的飞奔而去。 　　

　　
他躺在床上，眼睛看着我，没有说话，没有起床，一动也不动的。 　　
：喂，你怎么了？为什么不通知我呢？ 　　

　　
他没有回答我，只是一直用同样的眼神看着我。 　　
：回答我啊，你为什么不说话？ 　　
他眼角留下了一滴泪，身体仿佛用了最大的力气，牵动着嘴角 　　
：...对不起...。说完，他闭上了眼睛。 　　
：喂，你别装了好不好，为什么要说对不起，我不要你说对不起啊，你起来啊，回答我啊。 　　

　　
我哭倒在他床边，拉着他的衣服哭喊着：你为什么要说对不起，连说服我的理由都没有？我不会原谅你，你起来啊，你说对不起没有用啊，你不起来我这辈子都不会原谅你，我求求你....睁开眼睛啊...。 　　
这是他说的一百句对不起...一群医生和护士拉开我，开始抢救他，我全身没有力气再站起来，我的头脑一片空白，眼前一片漆黑..。 　　
他没有离开这个世界，只是我永远都无法触摸到他，但他有时也会在我的梦中出现，告诉我他过的好不好。 　　

　　
他还是陪着我，还是活着，在我心里，他依然如昔，还是会笑着叫我咏熙，叫我老婆，只是..他不再对我说对不起了...。 　　

　　
过了几个月，他妈妈来找我，给了我一个盒子，里面装的，是一百张照片，每一张照片的背面，都写着它让我生气的事情。 　　
第一次对不起，老婆，我今天不是故意迟到的，我也知道理由很烂，但是我真的不忍心说实话，我在出门前突然心脏绞痛，但是我已经尽量赶了，原谅我好吗？第二次对不起?老婆，我.......... 　　
第三次对不起，老婆，我... 　　
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第 一百次对不起，老婆，我不是狠心要丢下你，只是上帝似乎不给我这个机会让我爱你一辈子，为你带上戒指，你是我第一个让我说对不起的女孩，也是我第一个想共 度一生的女孩，原谅我不能给你幸福，我会化作天使，守护着你，看着你得到幸福，答应我，别哭，我不要看到你为了我憔悴流泪的样子，我爱你。bye 梦伟 　　

　　
我怎么可能不哭，你的要求太严苛了，最后一张照片，是他在医院理拍的，照片上他笑的很灿烂，他变的好瘦，脸色好苍白，但是他还是露出了笑容，拍这第

　　
一百张照片。 　　

　　
在他最虚弱罪痛苦的时候，我没有陪着他。 　　
对不起。 　　
我抱着他的照片，泪流不止！！ 愿天下所的情人.愿你们能珍惜眼前的人,不要失去后才懂得珍惜...不要让悲剧再次上演!

" 如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

在此祝福全天下所以的有情人~都能夠忠誠眷屬~~"

tHis iS fUn~!! ^^

lOl~~ today bOwlinG pRaCtisE... eXhaUstEd~~~ nEarly brIng a brOkEn fIngEr baCk hOmE.. my fInGer SwOllEnEd~~~~~ pAiN sIa.... ><><><><

۪۪۫۫L۪۫۰۪۪۪۫۫۫O۪۫۰۪۫ V۪۫۰۪۫E۪۫ ۰۪۫Y۪۫۰۪۫O۪۫۰۪۫U*

今天好累好累噢。。也不知道为什么那么累。。可能是一整天都在考试的缘故吧。。我的头痛又来了。。。头又开始在痛了。。。唉。。。老毛病又犯。。今天的天气很热。。就连安静的坐着也会流汗。。很烦躁的一天。。我不喜欢。。。放学回家后。。整个人也没轻松下来。。躺在沙发上。。电视又没有什么好看的节目。。躺着躺着。。。躺到累。。就跑去开电脑上线。。最糟的是。。就连上线了也没什么朋友上线。。有上线的确是不认识的人。。要不然可就是上线了人走掉的。。很闷噢。。。我很讨厌一个人闲着没事干。。。因为。。没事做的时候。。我就会想起他。。今天我又想起他了。。很想找他。。可是又没理由找他。。他也在做工。。每次都等到晚上深夜了才鼓起勇气找他。。现在我知道了。。传信息他是不会回复的。。。只有miss call他。。他就会打回来找我了。。然后就可以跟他闲聊。。可是因为每次都很夜了所以他打回来时都会问我很暗了为什么还不要睡觉。。 ^^ hehehe... 可是他还是会陪我聊几句。。然后再催我赶快睡觉。。只要晚上有跟他讲电话，就会睡得特别甜。。hehehe.. 他长得其实还不错。。可是他的岁数比我大。。不只大一两年。。大概有五六年吧。。他很像一位歌星+演员。。 那就是陈小春！！！ 真的超像的。。我怎么在谈他了。。。不可以再写了。。再写全世界就知道完了。。 =D 就这样吧。。明天还要应付考试。。。好累哦。。真的很讨厌考试。。明天考 Ekonomi Asas 跟 Commerce.. haix... Commerce 我没上到课。。完全不懂commerce到底讲些什么。。唉。。明天的考试要怎样过关。。。。。。。 哈哈哈。。 凉拌吧。。每次都是这样。。幸运的话婷会做那么就有答案可以抄。。她不会的话。。那就大家一起死咯。。。好吧。。今晚写到这里吧。。没东西写了也是。。哈哈哈。。。

bOreD bOrEd bOr3D.. ><

当天的战利品！！！ kawaii neh... =D

< Simon is the 1 with spec.. KeNnEth is the red n
white stripes shirt de.. hahas..

bLank bLaNk....

My brain is totally blank now.. Come into tis blog.. wanna write something.. but dono wad to write.. grr... anyway... intro 1 song to u all... Break tHe Ice by Britney Spears.. i like it..

Britney Spears Break The Ice Lyrics

It's been a while
I know I shouldn't have kept you waiting
But I'm here now

I know it's been a while
But I'm glad you came
And I've been thinking 'bout
How you said my name
Got my body spinning
Like a hurricane
And it feels like
You got me going insane
And I can't get enough
So let me get it up

Ooh, looks like we're alone now
You ain't gotta be scared
We're grown now
I'm a hit defrost on ya
Let's get it blazin'
We can turn the heat up if you wanna
Turn the lights down low if you wanna
Just wanna move you
But you're froze up
That's what I'm saying

Let me break the ice
Allow me to get you right
Won't you warm up to me
Baby I can make you feel
Let me break the ice
Allow me to get you right
Won't you warm up to me
Baby I can make you feel

So you warming up yet?

You got me hypnotized
I never felt this way
You got my heart beating
Like an 808
Can you rise
To the occasion
I'm patiently waiting because
It's getting late

And I can't get enough
So let me get it up

Ooh, looks like we're alone now
You ain't gotta be scared
We're grown now
I'm a hit defrost on ya
Let's get it blazin'
We can turn the heat up if you wanna
Turn the lights down low if you wanna
Just wanna move you
But you're froze up
That's what I'm saying

Let me break the ice
Allow me to get you right
Won't you warm up to me
Baby I can make you feel
Let me break the ice
Allow me to get you right
Won't you warm up to me
Baby I can make you feel

I like this part
Feels kinda good
Yeah

Let me break the ice
Allow me to get you right
Won't you warm up to me
Baby I can make you feel
Let me break the ice
Allow me to get you right
Won't you warm up to me
Baby I can make you feel
Hot

Let me break the ice
Allow me to get you right
Won't you warm up to me
Baby I can make you feel
Let me break the ice
Allow me to get you right
Won't you warm up to me
Baby I can make you feel

朋友出去走走。。。

今天过得好开心啊。。哈哈。。今天没去补习跑去找朋友喝茶。。拉着Simon一起逃课。。我们去新烧包喝茶。。哈哈。。跑到婷家去载婷。。最后还去载了荣。。。到了荣的家才发现Pipo也在。。所以Pipo也跟我们一起去喝茶+吃包。。哈哈。。Jean也先到那边等我们。。Simon载了滨就一起来找我们。。在新烧包我们开始谈天。。谈什么我已经忘了。。因为谈的都是废话。。哈哈。。全部笑到肚子痛。。过后Simon提议去PasarMalam走走。。然后我们全部就跟他的车上PasarMalam.. Pasar Malam 真的是挤到爆。。人真的很多很多。。。好热。。我们买了炸lekor来吃...刚炸好的。。吃了过后我的嘴巴就开始痛了。。。还好不会很痛。。然后还买了很久很久没吃到的KacangPutih。。买了一包。。一块钱而已可是还蛮大包的。。我们全部公私吃。。好回味啊。。小小的时候吃的。。过了很久很久在吃真的觉得很好吃。。。哈哈哈。。走着走着。。荣突然讲他想大便。。zzzz 真的是败给他。。。然后Pipo就陪他跑回家大便。。然后Simon的妈妈刚好打来。。要他去载他的妹妹去补习。。滨就陪他去载咯。。就剩我，婷还有Jean我们三个人等他们回来。。好死不死。。还跟我下雨。。我们就跑进MaBaker避雨。。在里面坐着。。突然婷跟Jean她们两个就讲要买号码。。她们打给滨叫滨帮忙买。。。过后滨的妈妈那边卖完了所以没得买。。我们就等Simon还有滨到回来在我们然后再去买。。买好了过后。。我们就决定一起去吃饭。。。Simon就在我回去拿车。。然后婷赶着回家。。我就载婷回家先然后到新乐原找他们。。。然后我跟Jean到的时候，他们刚好骗滨他的电话不见了。。害滨到处找他的电话。。哈哈哈。。过后他们才把电话拿出来。。然后滨就笑骂我们玩他。。哈哈哈。。 过后我们就开始吃饭。。吃到一半突然有一个‘哑巴’来买卡通锁匙吊饰。。一个原价十五块钱他扣给我们十二块钱一个。。过后我们在跟他减到一个十块钱。。他也讲可以了。。我们就选了四个。。再跟他杀价。。四个三十五块钱。。他不肯了。。过后我们塞多三块钱给他。。要他算我们三十八块钱四个。。头头他不肯的。。过后我们一直跟他比okok的手式他才肯用三十八块钱卖给我们。。嘿嘿。。我也买到一个战利品。。哈哈。。下一个帖才公布我的战利品的照片给你们看。。哈哈。。吃饱后我们又在那里讲些有的没的。。然后笑到很开心。。过后就载滨，荣还有Pipo回家。。玩的真开心啊今晚。。可以想到年尾我们一起去KL的情景了。。一定会玩得更疯。。哈哈哈。。一定不会闷的。。有滨跟Simon在。。我们全部人一定会笑到翻。。。To end of tis year's KL trip~!! ChEeRs~!!!! muax~~~

hmm.....

i slept in the class for whole day... zzz... kuat lihai slp o mi... hahas.. i wanna visit the crocodile farm too!!! i was born in miri.. grew up in miri... live in miri for like 18 years dy!!!! n i never been to the miri crocodile farm... so pity... T_T yung n jean them escaped school n went to CROCODILE FARM... 要吐啊！！i wanna go.. i wanna go... hmm... tis morning's roll-call.... arghh.. a mess.. wOnDer wHy arh.... felt so lazy today... getting blUr n blUr... nOt knOwing wAd to do... y do we have roll-call every mon, wed, n fri?! tired of listening to the babbles... bla bla bla.... wad a boring school day for today... after school... i drove out once i reached home.. went round pelita shop houses to give away the school magazines... hmm... i pulled momo to acc mi whole afternoon...hahaha... but i acc him to go cut his hair too... hahas.. i din get my nap today... sad sia... having steambot for dinner... tom yam bowl... hahas.. tasty... after dinner... dono wad else to do again... feel like wanna go out... but... dono wanna go whr... no ppl pei oso.. haix... den come write tis blog lo.. my mind thinking something.. but i dono wad im thinking... jz feel uncomfortable... like i lost something n i didnt knw wad is it.... hmm... wonder hows he doing right nw..... didnt contact with him much... think he is juz fine larh... =x hmm... nth else to write liao... my brain blank enuf... >< too blur... rdy go get myself a drink... n relax...

fUckiNg sOi~~

wAd tHe hEll?! fuCkinG sOi arh tOday!!! wEnt to bOwlInG tRaiNinG today.. after tRaiNinG... i drOve my car oUt frOm thE bAsEmEnt... den.. i realised tat... the parking ticket was not around!! omg... nid to pay rm15 to go out for losing the ticket!!! den no choice but to pay them.. haix.. den nvm liao lo... i admit myself soi... den.. still gt 2nd matter came up.. mami fetched mi go tuition.. when i gt down frm the car.. my shoe juz bRoKen!!! argh!! nth can do to help.. forced to wear the broken shoe.... zzzz... den... after tuition!!!! fk arh!! daddy came to fecthed mi.. when i gt in the car.. i forgot my leg still hanging outside den i close the door... shit!! the door jz slam on to my foot.. zzz.. suffered in deep pain... T_T

我的心情记载。。

今夜感觉特别孤单。。突然好想有人愿意陪在我身边。。。

孤單心事
独自一个人，很孤单 想念一个人，太孤单
期待一个人，却孤单
失去一个人，变孤单 到底几个人不孤单？ 还有几个人好孤单？

我的心情写照啊...到底该不该放弃...明知没有结果， 却断得不彻底...
我才发现 ，其实我真的很喜欢很喜欢你....
好想好想有那么一个男生愿意爱我和照顾我。。。那么我就不会觉得孤单。。。

心情时好时坏。。。

nOw gOt 2 Mr. D.. bOth Mr.D oso jUz will be my fReNs.. hmm.. bUt i lIkE tHe wAy tHey aRe.. bOth of tHeM aRe cUte.. =D i wAn a Bf... bUt i dOn wAn hIM to bE Mr.P or mR.K... hmm... wOndEr wHen my lOvE will aRriVe... hahas... sOt liao..
haix.. bUt.. i jUz rElI hOpE sOmEonE to lOvE mi.. n i lOve tat sOmeOne too of coz.. hahas... getting bOred of beIng single... zzz.... nid a bf to spend my time together with mi...

otHer than having bf... im planning on having a TaTtOo... =x NicOle Ricci's ankle tattoo so cool.. im planning to have 1... but have to save $$ for tat..


nice tattoo on the leg.. im going for tat... 100% totally... =D

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~FairyTattOo~

bOreD..

wAd a bOreD dAy.. wIsh tO gEt oUt frOm tHis hOusE.. n hAvE fUn!!!! i cant bElIeVe im bOrEd uNtil wAtCh tHe oLd aMerIcAn mOvie - SaBriNa.. zzz the mOvIe tat is in bLaCk n wHitE!!! sOmEtHinG wRonG wIth mI!!!! iM wAtChInG tHe dUll mOvIe!!!!!!! hEll!! wAd tHe hEcK im dOinG... nOtHinG mUch tO dO.. arghh.. jUz hOpE to gO oUt n fInd mY frIendS.. oR eVen gO oUt to see lEnG zAi.. =D hahas... BUT... im nOt aLLoWed to gO oUt!!! im grOunDeD!!!! haix... althOugh oni 1 day... bUt it fEels liKe 10 yEaRs!!!!! keep lOoKinG at tHe clOck... tHe nEedLe jUz wOnt mOve!!!! zzzzz.... wHo cAn sAvE mi?! o.O... wAiT.. sUddEnlY tHink oF sOmEtHing to dO.. TAKING PICTURES!!!! WHOA... at lEasT sOmEtHing tO dO... =D

对你。。。

最近我发现我好像喜欢上你了。。。可是我知道我们是不可能的。。因为你跟我说过你喜欢比你大的女子。。而我。。你把我当成妹妹。。。你每次都叫我小妹妹。。。所以。。我敢肯定。。我和你是不会有在一起的一天。。。认识你也有一段时间。。不知不觉中。。。我爱上了你。。。你真的让我对你有那种盼望爱情会到来的人。。唉。。。Mr D. 你要我怎么办？好像知道你对我到底是什么感觉。。

fUckiNg sh!t dAy~~

omg.. cant believe tis is actually happened on mi... im inside the car... n watched the motor cOminG to my way.. n den BOOM.. knOcked on my sIdE of the dOoR.... T_T nearly tio heart attack arh... tis is way too scary.... never ever think of such an accident will happened on mi... its ok tat im nOt injUreD at all.. jz the car gOt very 'hUrt'.... haix.. luckily nOt mi driving... haix... but my fren gOt shOcked too.. she drove away her car... n phOneD her dad.. her dad scOld her... haix.. cannOt blAme all to her... its the 1st she crashed with motor.. 1st time invOlve in tHe aCciDeNt.. haix.. she cried n cried... hOpe she is ok... reli hOpe she can get ovEr tis... must cheer up k my dear sis... everything will be juz fine..
hope tmr wont have anything bad goes on...

大胆到极点！！

u wOnt bEliEvE wAd jUz hAppEnEd!!!! i esCapEd tUitiOn!!!!!!!!! -.- okay... i knOw tats nOt sOmetHing sPecIaL... hahas.. cOz i did tat aLL tHe tImE.. bUt... tOdaY's sItUatiOn was wAy dIffErEnT!!! mi n jEan eScApEd tUitiOn to wAtCh tHe Riam's Basketball match... hahas... den we rUshed bAck to tHe tUitiOn... wHen oMos wAnnA rEacHed tUitiOn, i SAW MY DADDY IN FRONT OF OUR CAR!!!!!! OMG... den jEaN dRovE pass hIm.. n lead in front.. den i qUickly rUn to the stAircAse n pRetEnd i jUz cOme dOwn fRoM tHe tUitiOn... ><>< hOpe wOnt gOt nx tIme lerh... my hEarT nOt strOng enUf to sUppOrt all tHeSe matterSs... hahas... lastly... all i wAnt tO sAy is.... PHEWWWWWW!!! n THANK GOD!!!

my bbQ~!!!

it shOuld be a nice BBQ pArTy.. arghh... it shOuld never happened.. T_T my bbq..... forced to call off due to heavy rain... haix... invited frens come... they arrived 5min den the bbq thingy COLLAPSE!!!!! the wind blew it off!! wad the hell.... frOm a grEat pArtY tUrneD intO a dIsAstEr... oh dear..... 1st time happened in my whole life.... through all the parties.. tis is the 1ST time that the paRty gOt rUinEd!!!! gOd..... hOpe itS the LasT dIsAstEr happened... we still gOt many pArtieS wanna go on... hahahas.... haixx... bUt still... today's matter reli made mi sHame.... the party gOt rUiNeD jz after my 'new' fren arrived.... geee..... knw wad the feelings im having????? reli wanna find a place to cOver my face n hIde.. so that they wOnt knw... arghhh.... paiseh la!!!!! >< hOw cOuld tis tHing happEning tO mi!!!!!! hAppEneD in my pArty!!!!! =( hOw am i suppOse to faCe thEm aGain?? 1st time calling them cOme den disaster rUined it... haixx.... reli sad bOut tis matter larh...... hmmm......

Its tHe End.. And A New Beginning...

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we brOke up.. fOrgOt wHethEr its sAtUrday or sUndAY.. i gave up oUr relatiOnsHip... its the

best thing fOr us.. fOr mi i knOw.. its good fOr mi.. i cAnt affOrd anymOre fEar tHat he gavE

mi... aNd so, i'd let it go.. hOpe he can uNdersTand... reCently, i fOuNd myself avOidinG him.. i

dOn wish to gEt neAr hIm or eVen sms wiTh hIm.. cOz.. i fOuNd my lOvE fOr hIm is fAdInG

aWay.. sOmeThinG happEned tHat day, 1 sms let mi made my decisiOn to call off tis

reLatiOnshIp..

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o.O hmm... title?

hmm... my brain is blurred... cant think of anything... hais... planning to meet up my kor.. but he gt
no car in Miri... gee.. i cannot drive too... i mean mami don let mi drive out alone... hmmmm... sad
thing to talk about... T_T

kie kie kie kie.... my bf.. my lao gong.... hmm... wads got into us? my tempered? maybe... hais...
hope everythings going fine between us.... i reli don like quarreling... makes mi sad when
quarreling... >< love u darling... stay wif mi.. i'll stay wif u... hmm.. jz nw.. jz joined my pal's team.. car team? maybe... its βreaκ ™.. the team's name is βreaκ ™ .. =D
so now im >> βreaκ ™ღ♥ *Via* ♥ღ <<


GIANT HELLO KITTY!!!!!!!!! I WANNNNNNN..... T_T but too exp...... rm5xx... reli wish to
have it.... T_T

im so helpless...

i juz scratched my best sis's car!! for god sack... i got her car scratched!!! wad am i doing? why i wan to drive her car... why i have to make her cry? why tis happen to mi? its all my fault.. if i din drive her car then nothing will happen.. if i din ask to drive her car in the 1st place... nothing will happen too... all bcoz of mi.. im the wrong 1.. im very very wrong.. im so stupid.. n im very very very sorry.. but now say sorry oso cant help anything.. if her dad reli don let her drive coz i scratched the car, i will be very very sorry n i dono how to face her.. im so fucking useless.. wad oso cant help.. at the end she still help mi cover everything from her dad.. she didnt let her dad knw it was mi who scratched the car... haiz... in a sudden i reli feel like killing myself.. i reli dono wad i can do make things fine.. i dono wad to do more.. juz hope tat tis matter wont spoil mi n her de friendship.. somemore.. i don feel like driving anymore.. i guess i wont have the guts or heart to drive.. if im driving.. i wont be happy oso.. im starting to hate everything bout cars n driving.. haiz.... so fucking hate all of these matters... why these things happened on mi?????? hope everything will be fine... haiz..

settle den good..!!

Finally the matter has ended n settled!!! dOn nid to mentiOn bOut tat siLLy matter anymOre..
hOpe she reli will nOt start all tis mAtter eVer aGain.. reli tIred Of all theSe 'dRaMas'... dOn
invOlve mi n the Others intO it... let tis thing end.. settled den good for all of us..

ur wAy too FAKE!!

BullsHit.. i hEard of a ‘NEWS’.. Brilliant news.. She thinks she can fool everyone else

around her?

well let mi tell u something!! all u did are so STUPID n u are making urself a FOOL..

a tOtal idiOt..u think its a fUn tHing to play other ppl's feeling? by hUrtinG otHer ppl jUz can lEt

ursElf feel haPpy izzit? wad a stUpiD n CrUel thing u aRe dOing tHr.. u shOuld be aShAme oF

uRseLf fOr bEinG like tAt.. 1 wOrd to say to u... FAKER!! u bEtter lEavE all Of us alOne.. u want

tO be the 'faker' go on.. BUT.. dOn fake us!!! dOnt tRy to mEss uP my lIfe, my fRieNdsHip n

my Pride! anOther thing is.. her BF oso same like her!!

I TREATED U AS MY BEST FRIEND

N ALL U DID TO THX A FRIEND LIKE MI WAS LETTING UR FUCKING GF

REPLY UR FUCKING MESSAGE N FUCKING LET HER PLAYED UR FRIEND??

wHat is the pOint fOr dOing tat huh? wasted my lOve on U b4!! i cAn tell u CLEARLY now!!

i DONT LOVE U ANYMORE!! I ONLY TREAT U AS MY FRIEND!! SO..

PLS UNDERSTAND TIS!! TELL UR GF N URSELF TAT 我没有还是很爱很爱你!!!

SO!! TELL UR GF!! STOP BEING SO CHILDISH!! OKAY!! i GOT MY OWN BF NOW!!

AND IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH HER OR U!!! SO STOP TELLING URSELVES

TAT I STILL LOVE U SO MUCH!! GET IT?! I HOPE TIS IS THE LAST TIME SHE

DID TIS KIND OF THING.. ! RESPECT PEOPLE's PRIVACY! AND RESPECT UR

FRIEND!!!

Lastly.. all i wan to say is.. i feel very sorry for u tat u have to did tis stUpid thing

to make urself feels good to hUrt ppl.. Ur so PatHeTic.. doNo wad i mean

'PATHETIC'? go check ur dictionary..!!

stOp blAming hIm... T.T

omg.. omg.. omg... m eng dao kia.. EdisOnnnnnnnn..... he dOnt nid to apOlOgize... whY? cOz.. he

is nOt the 1 tat gives Out the phOtos... its sO nOt him.. T.T but still he came oUt n apOlOgize to

everybOdy.. >< style="font-weight: bold;">he still will Owes be my idOl in my heart.. =D

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hmm..... everythings gOing finE... gUess so.. mommy sTill dOno bOut mi n him having tis bf n gf

relationship gOing on.. >< style="font-weight: bold;">the fact tat i ady

have a bf.. T.T hOw am i suppOse to ler her knw tat??? coz he is nOt the type of gUy tat

mommy will like... hmm....... sTressSssSsss.......... hOpe everything will be fine by the time i

intrOduce K to my mom...

sCarY... =x

gOt a bAd neWs last nite.. A.Z.'s daddy asthma n were coma for sometime... fainted n were brought

to the hOspital... 2day jz woke up.. n could talk a little bit.. hOpe he can get up n get hEaltHy sOon..

reli shOcked when he tOld mi bOut tat.. my hEart frEezed fOr sOme mOmEnts.. >< Z din slp fOr

the whOle nite.. hOpe he rmb to rest mOre too.. =x


hais.. OthEr thAn tAt.. i gOt oTheR pRobS... T_T tats him.. 'K' << haVinG sOme trOubles wif

him.. he likes to say sOmething like for eXamplE : im seriOus to u de o.. u don play mi o.. / or i

hope i am ur last n oni bf.. <<< omg... im stressing fOr tat.. im oni 18 years old!!! ah no.. 17 half..

-.- n he wan mi to say sOmething lyk fOrevEr... -.- give mi a brEak... lOve is suppOse to be

FREEDOM n RELAXING n HAPPY~~~~~ dOn tell mi u will die if i leAve u 1 day k??? tat reli

frEaks mi Out..

grrr.... wOnder he reli is the right gUy tat can take CarE of mi iNstEad of gAinIng prEssUre on

mi...

~~uPdAte UpDaTe~~

Today mami cooked some food n i invited my frens to come over to have lunch wif mi.. x33

after tat we went to pipo's house.. the same thing started again... Gambling.. lols..

after tat we went to Wen's house.. oso gambling thr... lols.. played wif wen's puppy.. so cute.. =x

forgot to take down the pic of the puppy... its name is E.T << LOL.. weird rite? E.T.. zzz

from out of space.. hahaha... but it is a cute puppy... fluffy.. =D

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12/02 - celebrated mami's birthday.. x33


mami(left) n popo(right).. hahas.. tats mami's cake~~~

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kinda bored so took the pic.. =D

U gave mI a nEw lIfe..

i met sOmeone.. sOmeOne spEciAl eNuf to let mI fAll fOr hIm.. hOpe he rEli is tHe One tAt cAn lOoK aFtEr mI.. x33
yEsTerDay we wEnt tO many hOusEs bai nIan.. he acc mi aLL tHe wAy.. n i appRecIate tAt.. cOz all aRe mY fRiEnds, n hE dOno anyOne of tHem.. >< bUt yEt he sTill wiLLinG tO acc mI gO hEre n tHerE.. hehe..


tis is kie n mi x33 took the pic at mIng's hOuse.. and tIng them stiLL gamblIng.. hahas..

i hAte mY liFe~ fk it..

wad did i do? why am i owes wrong to other ppl? im useles??? do eu reli think tat? har mommy? do eu reli think tat? im jz an useless gal to eu? izzit so? i jz didnt accompany daddy to go out shopping fer tonite!!!! den eu say im useless????? who accompanied daddy tis afternoon to go out shopping? who helped eu to prepare for the CNY? who HELPED eu did all the household chores? who helped eu when eu shout HELP? har?? who???? IS ME!!!!! and nw i jz lazy to go out at nite shopping wif daddy den eu say im useles?? BRAVO!!! lemme clap my hands out loud for eu!!

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last nite.. i did something tat inside other ppl's eyes it may be wrong.. but its worth for mi to do it.. coz if nt i will regret it.. coz.. the chance is lyk less than 10%.. so.. its my only chance to be with him.. and i treasure it.. =p

Hello Kitty Rox~!! x33 its so cUte.. >< wish its mine.. T_T

wAd a wOnderfuL nite~ ><

last nite.. i had my dinner wif my friends at Micheal Steambot.. ate much.. >< until stomach

nearly xplode.. hahas.. =D den.. after dinner we all gOt our dessert.. =p chocolate ice cream..

hahas.. n tats made our stomachs more full.. =x hahas.. we had a gr3at dinner.. after tat, we
went
to pasar malam.. [ n i drove my fren's car ] LOLS.. all scared to death.. T_T hey momo!! im

nOt tat bad in driving hor!!! =P at pasat malam.. we met F.F, she was selling drinks there..

of coz..we bought some drinks for her.. owes SUPPORT our friends.. x33 ^_^

den.. when we're walking inside.. guess who i met? an unexpected special people.. x33 tats him! i

met A.Z. ><>*blush* =) den.. he picked mi hOme.. we waited

tOgether until 12am.. why? coz when the clock reached 12am.. means.. its his Birthday.. =P wish

him happy birthday.. quite speacial.. waited for the time to reach.. hahas.. i had a gr3at nite last

nite.. long time didnt enjoy myself lyk tat.. i had fun.. =P hahas..

iM nOt mi.. ><

i gOt my HAIR dOne.. hahas.. new hair style fer the coming CNY.. =) im so cannot wait until CNY.. can get many ang paos from uncleSss or auntieSss.. hahas.. nOt only tat.. i still can go Out n visits my best friends hOme.. hahas.. it will be FUN.. =p

i juz booked a birthday cake fer a friend of mine.. he is celebrating his birthday.. wOnder whr he celebrates his birthday at.. >< esplanet =" mOmmy">< sigh.. hahas..

these 2 days.. im being nOt lyk myself.. i dono why too.. im feelin lonely.. =( i miss him lots... yah i knw.. although we broke up fer so many months ady.. n he gOt a new gf too.. >< i still gOt my heart on him.. and i dono how to wipe him off my mind.. =(
hOpe he can lives happily tOgether wif her.. i said to myself.. whenever he nids sOmeOne.. i'll be there fer him.. coz?? we're close friends.. closest den ever...

iM baCk..

D3ar Diary,

iM bAck yO.. =p lOng tiMe din uPdAte l3rHs.. leT's s3e... f3w days agO, i gOt my driVinG lIsEnCe.. ch3eRs~!!! tats 1 happi tHing f3r mi.. >< CNY is jz 'rOund the cOrner... even Valentine's Day too.. tis year will be a lOnely Valentine's day... Sigh.. =(

i wAnna gO dOne mY eyelAsh3s!!!!! i wan i wan i wan!!!!!! but.. i CANT!!!! why??? COZ THE 'MOM' SAY ： EU STILL SCHOOLING CANNOT GET THE EYELASHES DONE~ << WTH??
arghhh.... who cares bout tat? its nOt lyk the PREFECTS in school are going to note down my name fer : having lOng lashes.. -.- zzz... sianz.... the whOle family exCept my daddi.. my MOM n SIS they bOth gOt their LASHES DONE!!!!!! ONI MI CANNOT!!!!!! ARGHHH... Can I Go Bang The Wall Now?! don feel lyk wanna see them around... see them around = see their LASHES!!! >
btw, during CNY.. think im gOing tO be very bUsy l3rh.. granni n auntie cOming to visit us too.. hmm.. lOng time din see granni lerh Oso.. =p Happi Chinese New Year~ x33

为你

如果我能闻到你的馨香
　　我知道很远

　　如果让我凝视你的明眸
　　就在我的眼前

　　如果还有一丝想念
　　我的遐思是如此贪婪

　　如果可以张开臂膀
　　拥抱着最深的眷恋

因为我想知道！
　　所以我守在你的身边

　　因为我想知道！
　　每夜都把美梦塞到你的枕畔

　　因为我想知道！
　　泪流下了会不会被时间风干

　　因为我想知道！
　　严寒是怎样被午夜温暖

为你，挂满一身的雪
唇边也不能融化就轻轻的呼吸

为你，站到冬的风口
温度矗立成飘扬的旗

为你，沉到冰的湖底
不是为鱼，是想冷却自己

为你，太阳普照大地
飞翔，是心与爱的距离

>< wad to do??

Many things pop up 2day in maple.. my gOod goOd fren in maple, guild master aka Avisha... wanna quit maple lerh.. T_T sad... reli wish to help her out.. but i dono how.. juz hope tat she can walk out from the sadness.. ^^ jiayou owhs sha~ x33 i knw eu can derh.. hehe.. we jiayou together.. i gOt thinking wanna quit maple oso lerh.. coz.. getting less and less frens inside maple.. many quit lerh oso.. and 'dardar'[maple dar] oso planning to quit lerh.. den if he reli does quit den i'll quit too.. coz he din maple lerh oni left mi inside oso bored.. no mapling mood at all.. so.. im thinking of quitting too.. arghh.. dono wad decision to make.. ><>< ...

tmr, im goin back to work lerhs.. back to the sticker stall to help out.. the boss sms mi : 'can come back help mi out at the stall at Sunday? i din have enuf help tat day..' so.. i agreed to help him out.. ><>< after tuition have to go back stall help him out too... tmr sure is a busy and tiring day.. wish mi luck..

A New Year, A New Life...

My New School Year's Resolutions

I will nOt get strAigHt A's this year. It's bad fer a persOn's image. Or at l3aSt, i wOnt g3t all A's.

I will nOt get baCk tOgeth3r with AZ, nO matter hOw t3mpt3d I am. I'm mOvin On.

I will cOntinUe tO b3 On my dIet.. aT l3Ast wEigh On3 pOunD less.

I will cl3an my Onc3 a weEk. Okay, let's be r3aliStiC. Every Oth3r wEek.

I will dO my hOm3wOrk unLeSs th3r3's sOmeThinG bEtt3r tO dO.

I will...

Wait a sEcOnd. Why am i bOth3ring with tHis liSt?! It's nOt like im acTuallY gOing tO dO any Of th3s3 thIngs, so what's the pOint?


a new year, a new hair cut~
♥