im so helpless...

i juz scratched my best sis's car!! for god sack... i got her car scratched!!! wad am i doing? why i wan to drive her car... why i have to make her cry? why tis happen to mi? its all my fault.. if i din drive her car then nothing will happen.. if i din ask to drive her car in the 1st place... nothing will happen too... all bcoz of mi.. im the wrong 1.. im very very wrong.. im so stupid.. n im very very very sorry.. but now say sorry oso cant help anything.. if her dad reli don let her drive coz i scratched the car, i will be very very sorry n i dono how to face her.. im so fucking useless.. wad oso cant help.. at the end she still help mi cover everything from her dad.. she didnt let her dad knw it was mi who scratched the car... haiz... in a sudden i reli feel like killing myself.. i reli dono wad i can do make things fine.. i dono wad to do more.. juz hope tat tis matter wont spoil mi n her de friendship.. somemore.. i don feel like driving anymore.. i guess i wont have the guts or heart to drive.. if im driving.. i wont be happy oso.. im starting to hate everything bout cars n driving.. haiz.... so fucking hate all of these matters... why these things happened on mi?????? hope everything will be fine... haiz..